Yes, it has been ‘busy, busy’. The last week and a bit have been full of challenges. I have often been very anxious. But I have come through which I think personally is a great achievement. The problem is that if only I could say to myself I did that so I know I can do it again. The trouble is it doesn’t work that way for me. Everyday feels like starting over again. My niece came to stay with grandma and grandad (ie my parents) for half term so I did a bit of auntying. Now I’m not really that great at it and find the whole thing very challenging, and I did beat her at tenpin bowling twice. I also managed burgers at a local restaurant without choking so that was confidence building. And I did play some nice games with her like Monopoly.
As many of you may have heard “Tilly” is going to the Royal Academy of Arts in March for the SEND conference “Why and How” and I have agreed to take part in a panel discussion live. Why I said yes I don’t know – but I do think it is really important to talk about female autism – but the whole thing is just huge. Not only do I have to appear, I’m also doing two nights in a hotel and eating out. My parents are coming, my mum will be with me, so I will be looked after. Also, in this most hectic week I’ve had our organiser Susan and the illustrator Ellen get together in my flat for a discussion on what we were planning to do at the Royal Academy and also Ellen brought along some of the first pictures she drew for “Tilly” and it was absolutely fascinating to see the process up to the finished book. We are now busy emailing each other with ideas. I’m just going with the flow and hope I don’t sound too nervous and dull on the day.
And if this wasn’t enough I also fitted in a trip to the dentist – I need a crown. I find visits to the dentist especially nerve-wracking, because I hate things in my mouth as well as the taste and smell. Fortunately I have a kind and understanding one. But the big highlight of the week was the trip to see “Rumours of Fleetwood Mac”, the best Fleetwood Mac tribute band out there. This my sixth occasion of seeing them and although the set list hardly changes year on year I’d still say they are a quality night out. It probably helps that I’m a huge Fleetwood Mac fan who has studied the band so my knowledge is really great. I did once about 13 years ago see the real Fleetwood Mac in London with my cousin and I must say it was brilliant but “Rumours of” fill a gap if the real band is not touring. I do find going out in the evening very stressful and I had my usual toilet “do I need to go/do I not need to go” the whole way through, but my National Autistic society carer Anthea was very good and got me through it. We even took a picture of me at the venue to send to my mum and here it is.
Things are calmer now. I got back on golf course on Tuesday and Friday. We did the usual shopping and cleaning. There is word of a trip to “Build a Bear” for a treat, I’m still looking for Montana and Kennedy!! To go with Madison and Dakota-Brie my other cheerleaders. Anyway as I said Busy, Busy but just about surviving!!